Keeping Expectations Low

Hi Everybody,
I think I got everybody's hopes up with my last blog post, making it look like I'm writing again. I mostly had something I needed to get off my chest. I do want to get back to this eventually, but I don't want to make any promises about it happening soon or regularly. Sorry if this is disappointing. When I'm ready to recommit, though, I'll probably send out an email, and maybe write myself a little celebratory post.
Thanks for being patient while I practice being lazy. I hate to keep people waiting, and I wouldn't do it unless I thought it were truly necessary.
Sincerely,
Holly

For anyone wondering about God

Christianity is offensive. I'm not talking about its practice and the hypocrisy of professing Christians (though those are significant); I'm talking about the basic tenets of the faith itself. Sin and hell are offensive. The idea that a man should die horribly for people who don't deserve it is offensive. The notion that we're bad enough to deserve that kind of punishment is offensive. Being told that people who've committed unspeakable atrocities can still go to heaven is offensive.

I want to ask you not to dismiss Christianity right off the bat, though, even if everything in you screams that it's wrong. I have my reasons for believing, but you shouldn't just take my or anyone else's word for it. More than anything, I hope you'll do something that most of us find very hard: Go to the source, God Himself. Just ask Him if He's real, if Jesus and the Bible are real, if Christianity is true or not. If He's not there, then all you'll have lost is the breath it took to speak the words. But you will be taking the risk of getting an answer, and I know how frightening that can be because I've been making myself do it for years, and it still scares me. Ultimately, I only want to believe all this if it's true. If God gets back to you and says I'm dead wrong in all I believe, let me know. In the meantime, I offer the following thought, both as a caution and an opportunity:

We will never find Truth, whatever it turns out to be, unless we're willing to let it change us.